so not really sure hat i'm thinking about lately i've sorta been out of it.
i've sort of been thinking of the Alexander McQueen Showcase at the MET in NYC.
all his beautiful works of art displayed in one place, it seems surreal. picturing all the materials that went into his creations and all of the time.
ugh. slightly unreal, sickening and time consuming.
by sickening i mean it makes me sick to ever think of trying that hard ahaha.
well the event is incredible, the NewYork Times did an article about it and how people were constantly showing up to the museum in extravagant McQueen gowns and once again paying their private respects to the late designer
so today i worked and yesterday i worked and tomorrow i work.
and i have strep throat.
but i'm poor so i don't mind . aha
so right now i'm currently having some down time.
pajamas.
wool socks.
comfy sweater.
no makeup.
hair mask in, hair up.
tea & cold water.
Kleenex.
i'm also currently watching Charlie's Angels which i must say is probably one of my favourite movies.
so i'm lying here i thought you might want to look at something that i might be thinking about.
So Zoe Saldana makes me want summer. her bright pastel yellow maxi dress makes me want easy breezy beautiful summer.
it makes me think of sand and makes me think of how she looks so beautiful and completely not overdone.
this reminds me of what summer should be. beaches, sand mojitos bikinis and half naked boys.
it makes me also want to be sun kissed, or man kissed... whatever wrks.
if realized that i desperatly need shoes i can wear everyday, but the problem is i'm sort of boring, i need to learn to dress with more colour and i would slightly love these shoes. i could rock em '.
i love laceups and i love grips and well they scream "rocknroll. bad girl. sex" i sort of love them.
i desperately need some leather, or bad in my wardrobe ..
i love models. it sounds so silly put they're china doll faces make me so jealous.
perfect skin, perfectly shaped eyes and lips and gorgeous bone structure.
Ugh fuck you both
just because orange is in for spring , and because i love lipstick.
so today is my first day "off" and by off i mean i'm still working just not DT.
its a beautiful day and i find myself completely losing the urge to ever run again, its kinda weird cause it's all i ever used to do with my time.
i'm maybe going shopping today with my mom because the ridiculously large quantity of clothes i currently have in my closet seem insufficient.
i want loose breezy clothes that make me feel all comfy.
i want fall coloured clothes that are plain and stylized.
aka i really don't know what i want i just don't want it tight.
Alright so i've been the biggest failure lately , i'm serious.
i just haven't done anything that i've wanted to.
i'm even convinced i eat foods that i don really want to eat but i just eat them cause they're there.
an awful thing to realize one is doing.
i haven't even read any of the magazines i've wanted to read .. pure bummer.
i always want to read in the bath because it's quiet and peaceful but i always make the water to hot to be able to stay in long enough . weird.
and then on top of that i just like to sleep in muahah
and on top of my entire life yesterday was the worse day ever. ugh pure crap.
i just listened to Damien rice's "Delicate" and Mumford and Sons all night and let the single tear droplets roll down my rosie cheeks.
He's a genius.
i could be blissfully teary eyed listening to him forever
i love him always.
anyways i wanted to share with my readers the tremors of my worlds known as my bed.
no not tremors due to sex.
but tremors because of the large chaotic mess that shakes me.
other than my emotional masochism that allows me to never move forward.
This is my room.
featured are all the magazines that remain unread.
thrown in are so lovely free product that i received from the kindness of the world.
Gucci Envy Perfume. its greatly a winter musk.
Clarins body products
Kibio, Vichy LancomeRoc, Cliniderm etc.
i'm convinced that if i consume myself with my feelings of adoration for the fashion industry my problems will go away.
it might work right ?
i also just want to be as great as i know i can be , but i'm having such an internal struggle with this one.
i feel that every time i encounter a problem and surpass it i run into something new.
it's extremely strenuous
none the less tonight i will be attempting to move forward. we'll see how that goes.
i'm going to read magazines and look up important fashion figures and attempt to be productive.
no slow-poke shit.
i'm also pure grunge tonight it's a cute look if you ask me ahah
