i did something bad

so i was driving somewhere the other day with pixie and well she told me she liked the pictures i put up on this cute ol' site of mine so i thought i would put some never before seen photos up.
well they have been seen just not because of my blog.


i had so much i wanted to write about but now i can't remember any of it.
i think that i will now carry around a little book and in it i will write everything i think not a diary but a brainstorm book and in it will be all of the wonderful and not so wonderful things i think of.

im just not sure anymore

 going to leave this open ended

alright so .. life is alot like fashion, in the end it doesn't matter but we enjoy it while we can.
the only reason i can think of is : that feeling.
it's the feeling you get.
nothing more, just  a feeling.
you know the one.
its the one when

Who will I be in 10 years? more like who will I be in 4 months.

Okay. so University is just around the corner.
Many challenges that teenagers like myself is staying in touch with those that we love right now, our friends. we deem them important to who we are because they've watched us grow. They have seen us overcome things whether it be with drugs or whatever or just fear; being scared to do something and overcoming that fear.
well Here's the thing after High school is done sad to say but there are so many people that i won't keep in touch with and the sad part i don't care. well ok maybe i care... but it's more like oh shit that sucks kind of care not so much of a i might cry my eyes out kind of care.
I keep wondering to myself why am i so cold?
and the answer is : i have no idea, but it could be that change is on the horizon.
   Over the past year i have changed alot , maybe for the better or maybe not .
but its undeniable. I've started turning into who i think/ and am pretty sure/ i want to be and well thats okay right because i realize that this person i want to be has to do with what i want to be and who i'll need to be later on.
I won't always be able to be who you want me to be.
& thats what i think is new and different. people always expect you to be someone specific and as soon as you change they dont know what do with the change because they aren't use to it.

So listen carefully to the next words i am about to write they're true and unemotional (sorry)   :
     in life chage is inevitable. you get skinny, fat, ugly, pretty, hairy bloated, bitchy, kind, depressed etc.
it happens.
nothing in life is ever the same.
accept change and move on. you can't dwell on the past cause it won't get you anywhere.
sure you can look to the past and admire it and love it and talk about loving it but that's where it ends. you can't live your life in what has already happened, because you will never move forward. you need to accept it as best as you can and continue because life, and 'm sure some will argue it, is in the future.

So: accept what has happened, embrace what is happening & look forward to what is going to happen.

look forward.

Barbie must have taken a shitload of prozzak.

ok so i know this girl right.
and the girl i know knows this guy.
and the guy knows this girl that the first girl also knows.
and well i was looking at pictures of the second girl.
and well this girl that the first girl and the first guy know knows this photographer.
and well the pictures were really good.
her name is Kensie Roberts and her pictures are gorgeous .
i totally suggest and recommend these pictures and this photographer.

just a sneak peek:

Things i love and love to look at


Jeremy Scott.
Alex Pettyfer.
(Mmmm )
Sex and the City.
Butterflies done Well.
Indie Pictures with Thoughtful Sayings.
"I'm a Wreck" Pictures.